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Equinox Nine Lives, Zarina’s story:

Equinox Brent logo“My name is Zarina and I am 20 years old. I love listening to music. I find it soothing and therapeutic and it helps me unwind.

“I also love seeing and talking to my Mum as she always gives me such great support and tells me that she is proud of me and she loves me.

“My life changed in the way that I couldn’t enjoy things anymore. Also I felt as if I was invisible and that no-one saw my struggle.

“My mind would be a swan, calm on the surface but paddling furiously under the surface to keep afloat.

“The most important thing to me is having a team of people ready to listen and support me all the time. Without them I wouldn’t be able to achieve the things I achieve today.

“I am proud of making a full recovery after having a serious breakdown because I really tried my best and I wanted to be well so much that I pushed myself to the limit.”

Equinox Brent:

  • Equinox Brent is a service for people who have experienced mental ill health and have previously been in high supported accommodation or hospital. At Equinox Brent, we help people over a 2 year period to prepare for moving on to lesser supported accommodation or complete independence.
  • Read about how Equinox Brent supported people to move on to greater independence in 2014.

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Equinox Nine Lives, David’s story:

Equinox Brent logo“My name is David and I am 45 years old.  I like music. I love listening to music. I’m learning to play guitar. I like to draw as well. I like to draw abstracts.

“If my mind and mental health was a colour? Brown, as in going round and round and round, cycle of life, no matter how it try to escape it, it’s there you know.

“A sky, a sun in the middle of the sky. There’d be like, natural formed columns, like mountain columns, side by side, and a bridge connecting them. It’s something that seems impossible to understand and overcome but there’s a path and assistance to getting across.

“I remember the voices said, ‘don’t tell anyone or they’ll lock you up in a psychiatric unit.’ That’s what they said. I actually told my family that I was hearing voices but that sort of went over their head.

“If I’m aware that I’m hallucinating about something or my mind is going in one direction it shouldn’t be going in, then I can stay on top of it, you know. It’s finding somewhere quiet, where I can be alone, to gather my thoughts. The first thing to confront in overcoming your mental health is accepting it.”

  • Find out more about Equinox Nine Lives, an audiovisual project celebrating the distinct voices and experiences of people who have experienced mental ill health and recovery

Equinox Brent:

  • Equinox Brent is a service for people who have experienced mental ill health and have previously been in high supported accommodation or hospital. At Equinox Brent, we help people over a 2 year period to prepare for moving on to lesser supported accommodation or complete independence.
  • Read about how Equinox Brent supported people to move on to greater independence in 2014.

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Equinox Nine Lives, Ann’s story:

“Hello, my name’s Ann and I’m nearly 55. I’ve got 4 daughters, who I love very much, and I’ve got 3 grandchildren. One’s 10 and the other two are 5.

“Like, if I haven’t seen them for a little while, they always come running over to me, ‘Nanny, Nanny’. And then they just give me a little cuddle. I think they love their Nanny.

“When I was little, me Mum used to knit baby booties for my youngest brother. And I used to finger knit. Then as I got older, I started to do my own knitting and I ended making my daughter a big blanket for the bed, two colours.

“If I’m unwell, I feel suicidal. And I get a lot of horrible thoughts in my head. That I don’t want to be here anymore.

“I feel different. I feel in a way that I’ve let my children down. But you’ve got to try and be strong and say, no, you couldn’t be there for them then. You’re there for them now.

“You could lock yourself up with pain and not want no-one to know and then it just gets worse and worse but if you can talk it out, sometimes you can get that little bit of support and it makes it ten times better.”

Equinox Nine Lives, Kathleen’s story:

“Kathleen, 44. Some days I have a good mood. Some days I have a bad mood. When I have a bad mood, I won’t eat or won’t talk to no-one.

“I speak to my keyworker Adrienne.  She helped me through the cancer. All the appointments I went to in hospital. She goes with me. She was with me for the operation, all day long. She’s been very good. She said to me: “Any problems, just come in the office and speak to her any time or ring her on the mobile.”

“Do not let it bottle up inside you. It don’t work. Just speak to people. Let them know what’s going on in your head.

“We go for a bus ride at Lewisham. Any problem, we just talk about it on the bus to ourselves. We have a laugh about it.  It does help. Get you out your house.  Or massage that is good. I went on Tuesday. Relaxes me. Get all the stress out. Aches and pains go away.

“I love cats. I’ve got a T-shirt with a cat on. Make me feel happy. Friendly cat, way he look at me and he eats a bit of my meat off my plate. I don’t mind that.”

Equinox Nine Lives, Henry’s story:

Equinox Lewisham logo“My name is Henry and I’m 43 years old. I like cars, yeah, because I did used to be a motor mechanic. I like the engines best, the engines are the best part of the car because when I was a young kid, well like 17, I did own a car. They were little Minis, you can fix them up and you can supe up the engines to different CCs.

“I think at the beginning was the hardest time when I first got ill, you know what I mean. I was really sick man, I don’t know what it was but I kept on imagining things. When you hear voices, it does make you paranoid, that’s what you feel. And I’m a strong-minded person, I thought I could have ended my life for good.

“Well, because I took medication and I had somewhere to stay to take medication, obviously I knew when to go for help, you know what I mean. I don’t get into the position I was in before where I had nowhere to go.

“I think it’s my friends help me the most, my friends and the people in the hostels that I’ve been at and the hospital. And probably my brother.

“I want to go on holiday this year. I want to go abroad on holiday. And I really want to do this, because obviously I’ve got a car yeah. And if I do this right, plan this holiday right, I can have a really nice time in probably Spain or Portugal or something, you know what I mean. I really would like this to go well.”

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Equinox Lewisham provide supported housing and assertive outreach for people who experience mental ill health, many of whom have other needs including a history of homelessness, offending, alcohol dependence and drug dependence.

Equinox Nine Lives, John’s story:

Equinox Lewisham logo“My first name is John. I am 58 years this year. I feel happy because I have the opportunity to voice my opinion and share my experiences in mental health.

“I was born in Nigeria, approximately 1956. My Mum died when I was very young. My father was in Great Britain during the Biafran War. So I was left in a village with only my granddad, who did not speak a word of English and didn’t know much about education.  I had to learn how to cook, get the firewood, bring the water from the well. Yeah, I grew up very quickly.

“It all began approximately 1972. I divided.  I became aware of mental health approximately 1978 when I got to know that there is something called schizophrenia. Although schizophrenia is not my enemy. I was about 16 to 18 years old when I began. Although I did not panic when I divided.

“If I can visualise tomorrow, which I am trying to do, if I put my life on a scale, tomorrow is better than yesterday.

“I’ve just learned how to laugh not long ago. I used to be so handsome, I looked miserable. But I’m able to smile and laugh now. I laugh because my mind is a lot better than what it used to be.”

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Equinox Nine Lives, Amazing’s story:

Equinox Southampton Way logo“My name is Amazing Grace and I am 47 years old. I lived in many areas, but mainly I spent my life in my youth in Nigeria.

“It’s confusing I must tell you. Because I remember as if I was a baby in the pram, hearing voices. You know a baby, can you imagine? Not even 1 year old, can’t walk, can’t crawl. I was hearing voices.

“I trained as a journalist, I think, by then I was 18. I was doing well academically. 100% A in 4 aspects. I went to Oxford University and I got first class in media studies and advanced technology for the postgraduate.

“I felt tired. I felt angry. Then my GP said, ‘you’re suffering from stress, mental stress,’ which means schizophrenia.’

“So when I was told that I was a bit sad, you know. I felt I don’t need all this. But then, I was coping very well.

“When I became unwell, the doctors said, ‘don’t do any study or jobs anymore’. Of course, I didn’t listen to them. I went on to college, did well, went to get jobs, you know.

“Hardest thing? The voices, the tiredness, the side effects, because I have cancer as well. But I have done very well in terms of how I’ve dealt with the schizophrenia in particular.”

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Equinox Nine Lives, Keith’s story:

Equinox Southampton Way logo“Alright, my name is Keith Giles. And my age is 50 years old. I was born in Lambeth North and I weigh 2.14 ounces. And I was so small, my grandma who passed away recently, she said ‘nurse, is he a normal baby?’ Nurse: ‘he’s alive and kicking.’

“Oh my life, oh wonderful. I enjoy going on holidays. I enjoy working. I worked for the biggest meat market in the world, we call Smithfield meat market.

“Mental illness started when I was about 24 years old, when my family split up over here, my Mum and my Dad, in the middle of a winter. I didn’t even have nowhere to go. I’d just started my job with Smithfield and I was really stressed out. Mental illness is like the cold weather. I can’t take the cold weather. One morning I went to drive and I couldn’t even spin the wheel on the car. And this lady, actually, Melanie, she actually find a space for me in the Maudsley hospital.

“I could go to my family anytime of the night or day and knock and get a welcome. In my life, I enjoy listening to music. I remember there’s a song that I really love.

Many rivers to cross
And I can’t seem to find my way over
By the river I’m lost as I travel along
White cliffs Dover
I’ve been washed, licked up for years
And I merely survive because of my pride

“My smile mean a lot to me. I always smile. Always smile. You know what pop style mean, do you? Pop style is like, showing off.  Cos my gold tooth, I’m showing it. No, no, I’m a happy man. I’m a happy going man, you know. You want to pave the way, make people enjoy what you say and what you do. Yeah.”

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Equinox Nine Lives, Marc’s story:

Equinox Southampton Way logo“My name’s Marc. I was born in Guy’s Hospital, you know Guy’s Hospital? Bermondsey, when I was little, I was born there. I used to collect coins, old coins. My uncle gave it to me when I was little. All old Victoria and stuff like that. Loads of old coins.

“I suffer from delusions, false beliefs. I get scared and suicidal sometimes. I try to go outside to motivate myself. Go outside and do things. Yeah, helps to try and get more motivated and take part in activities. My concentration levels are better. I’ve got to try and be more patient though, that’s part of my illness, I’ve got to be more patient.

“I love my family and they support me and look after me. My Mum, my Dad, all my family.”

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