Equinox Nine Lives, Ann’s story:
“Hello, my name’s Ann and I’m nearly 55. I’ve got 4 daughters, who I love very much, and I’ve got 3 grandchildren. One’s 10 and the other two are 5.
“Like, if I haven’t seen them for a little while, they always come running over to me, ‘Nanny, Nanny’. And then they just give me a little cuddle. I think they love their Nanny.
“When I was little, me Mum used to knit baby booties for my youngest brother. And I used to finger knit. Then as I got older, I started to do my own knitting and I ended making my daughter a big blanket for the bed, two colours.
“If I’m unwell, I feel suicidal. And I get a lot of horrible thoughts in my head. That I don’t want to be here anymore.
“I feel different. I feel in a way that I’ve let my children down. But you’ve got to try and be strong and say, no, you couldn’t be there for them then. You’re there for them now.
“You could lock yourself up with pain and not want no-one to know and then it just gets worse and worse but if you can talk it out, sometimes you can get that little bit of support and it makes it ten times better.”
- Read more about the Equinox Nine Lives project, which launched at City Hall on World Mental Health Day 2014.